Category Di’s Words of Wisdom

Have You Asked Someone Today… R U OK?

 

 

Ladies there times in life when life gets overwhelming, times when life seems to throw everything at you, times when you wonder will you through it. It might seem you have the weight of the world on your shoulders.

 

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This is the time that you look after you with love and respect. If a friend was telling you a litany of things going wrong would you be harsh with them? No you wouldn’t would you? Now is the time to cut yourself a little slack – be kind to you. It is Ok to put some of those balls you are juggling down.

Today, September 14th, is R U OK Day, a day to ask, listen and encourage. Your call, concern and kind word could make all the difference. have you called someone today? if not its not too late, pick up that phone.

 

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When challenges seem to be multiplying, when overwhelm and fear take over it leads to what I call ‘mushy brain. It is when coherent thought and action seem a million years away. From there it is so easy to spiral down to not coping, feeling anxious, isolating yourself, feeling depressed and you even contemplate darker actions.

It is important to realise you are not alone. There are people in the world who will listen to you. When you are in that ‘mushy’ state you tend not to see the people who are there for you and want to help. Seek out the people in your life who will listen with kindness and without judgement.

 

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Tips you may find helpful are:

  • Call a friend or someone who can help you and talk to them, just venting your feelings can make you feel better.
  • If that is you right now, take a moment to stop and breathe.
  • If you don’t have anyone around you there are other steps for when you feel isolated, hopeless and alone’
  • Examples are Lifeline 13 11 14 and Beyond Blue 1300 22 46 36
  • Journaling, writing down what is happening for you and what is causing your overwhelm. It can help you make sense of what is happening.
  • Go for a walk, get put in the fresh air for 20mind admire nature, you will feel better.

 

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These tips will allow you to be open to a change in perspective and remember each day has only 24 hours. Tomorrow you have a new day and a new chance.

In reaching out as a confidence mentor, that is someone who is there to call, listen and encourage, just saying ‘ I am there for YOU’. Reach out and call for an  a 20min obligation free session. Di xx

 

 

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Reflections and Insights on Three Things Louise Hay Taught Me

 

Today as I reflect on Louise Hay and my personal journey, I am very grateful for this woman who positively impacted the lives of many people. I bless you Louise for your powerful presence and contribution. In fact I popped over to my bookcase to see what I had there, the 3 titles that jumped out were:

‘The Present Moment – 365 Daily Affirmations

• ‘Heart Thoughts’ – a treasury of inner wisdom

• ‘You Can Heal Your Life’

 What’s on your bookshelf?

For anyone who little about her..this link gives a great precis of her life https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Louise_Hay

When I was in a dark place, her gentle words, her ability to reach out through the pages and share her inner wisdom allowed me to jump start my healing process.

 3 things Louise taught me

 

 1. The value of loving myself

2. Mirror work -

3. Insights into the connection between disease and ourselves.

 

 

THE VALUE OF LOVING MYSELF

‘I love and accept myself right now’  what a wonderful affirmation. Many of us feel we can’t love ourselves until we are healthier, in or out of a relationship, get more money, have a better job, have a holiday or some other out there thing.

When you do that you are putting off loving yourself, it is not serving your higher good, you are saying that you are not important or don’t deserve to be loved.

The time to love yourself is right now, in this present moment giving it all you have got.

When you have your love tank is filled then it can flow out and benefit your world. If you are running on empty, you have nothing to give.

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MIRROR WORK

This is a process that many resist, the very thought of looking into a mirror and saying ‘I love you’ makes you squirm. The greater the resistance the greater the need. It is a powerful exercise, I invite you to try.

• Stand in front of the mirror and close your eyes

• Think about someone who loves you and imagine viewing yourself through their eyes.

• When ready open your eyes and look into the mirror. Allow yourself to really see

yourself through the eyes of someone who totally loves you.

Give yourself time to absorb the process

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INSIGHTS INTO DISEASES

Louise invited you to see if you could find the correlation between diseases you may have had or are having now and probable causes. her suggestion was to:

1. look up the mental cause and see if that could be true for you. sit quietly and ask yourself ‘what could be the thoughts in me that created this?’

2. Repeat to yourself ‘I am willing to release the pattern in my consciousness that created this condition’

3. Repeat the new thought pattern to yourself several times

4. Assume you are already in the process of healing

 

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As I look back over the last 15 year journey, I acknowledge the journey I have travelled. Sometimes it was bumpy, sometimes I stopped and stalled, sometimes I cried buckets of tears. This lady’s gentle approach enabled me to move forward. In fact it has been looking forward, looking back…

 

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My life was definitely out of whack and my journey interesting, challenging and ongoing.  Is your life out of whack right now?

When life gets out of whack sometimes it just takes a quick swish of reflection and you are right, other times it can seem a long and unattainable road back to living and feeling in control of your life.

Would you like the magic of coming together with other like minded women? Would you like to see yourself getting randomly excited, having a living experience? Would you like to boost your confidence and raise your enthusiasm?

If so join me for the 21 day Butterfly Net Challenge where with your imaginary butterfly net you capture happy moments, swish up a thought to capture that moment before any dark disturbing thoughts start and take back control of your life?

For everything to change, you have to change. We all know doing the same thing over and over and getting the same result is self destructive.

I would love you to join and engage with me, to get immersed in your butterfly net and by using a few simple tools diligently for 21 days you can make amazing changes in your thoughts, mindset and confidence.

If this resonates with you , you can reach out to me at……di@diriddell.com or on 0409 638 248

 

 

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Reconnecting with an old friend, I didn’t realise she was my best friend

 

She was somebody I had known for a long time, we chatted often and I was grateful for her advice. She was wise and gentle, she directed me with thoughts and ideas. Sometimes I listened, sometimes I didn’t. When I didn’t, I know now that it would have served me better if I had. I was driven, racing, running, being busy, busy, busy. Life happened nursing, marriage, step kids, my kid, work, play, community, widowhood, starting over… you know how it is and you can probably add a few of your own.

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She would pop in occasionally and we would chat, tough times happened, I pushed her away and we lost touch. That happens in life, we lose touch with dear and faithful friends… I lost touch with this one.

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I am happy to say after her nudging me several times gently then not so gently, we have re-connected. I finally stopped that run, push and relentless drive. I remembered, I have stopped to call and really chat with her, open up, show her the real me in the now. She has just the best advice, I will never lose her again. I will stay in touch and in tune… my best friend is Marie, my inner knowing.

Who is Marie? She is my inner knowing, I buried her so deep, denied her existence and I turned my back on her. In the process of starting over, I started to write and speak about my life changing challenges. I was emotionally overwrought, fearful, in fact my thoughts and life were out of control. Marie is my middle name, hidden away, ignored and never used, I did not realise that she is also my inner knowing.

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The origin of Marie is derived from the Hebrew Miryam and it has a debated meaning. Many believe it to mean a ‘sea of bitterness’ or ‘sea of sorrow’, others see it as a ‘wished for child’. The light and the dark…it was my choice. I chose the sea of sorrow and slipped into the darkest part of my soul.

When women experience trauma or severe life stressors it is not uncommon for our lives to unravel. We lose ourselves a little over the years and get caught up in a lot of external stuff and in doing so we can lose our friends as well… and I lost this one…

I am happy to say that I won’t lose her again, I will stay in tune and in touch. You see I now recognise her as a ‘much wished for child’, my much loved precious soul, my inner knowing. I have finally stopped long enough to call and re-connect and she has just the best advice and I am listening.

The way to find her again and be sure it is her advice and that is comes form a place of pure love and NOT the whisper or roar of fear and overwhelm is to be open and develop a clear and unshakeable love and belief in yourself.

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Your inner knowing puts your interests first, it is about who you really are, your real, raw, authentic and beautiful self. When you act from the ‘sea of sorrow’ it is exhausting and overwhelming, it is a load you are dragging with you draining your energy, it always wants more.. Begone with it…flick it off and return to (you remember Elvis’ song, I popped in a link (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PU5xxh5UX4U ).

Inner knowing understands that living with love also shows a quiet inner and strong confidence. That type of confidence is a gift that goes on giving, it is your gift to the world showing your compassion, understanding and love. Be true to your values, true to keeping your cup overflowing then you can be free, open and available to give it to others. Your gift will be your vibrancy, engagement and connection.

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It is in times of reflection and connection that magic happens.

If you are challenged by a lack of connection in your life the 21 Day Butterfly Net Challenge is a beauty.  I invite you to reach out and connect with me at di@ diriddell.com or through Facebook on Confidence Beyond 50

 

 

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5 Tips For Writing and Speaking Authentically

 

 

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1. Speak and write in your own voice

When I started to write and deliver speeches 40 years ago, I worried that what I had to say was not important, that no one would interested and set about copying the style of what I thought people wanted to hear. The result of that was my writing and speaking was stilted and unnatural, it did not sound like me – because it wasn’t.

Over time I grew confident and created my style and wrote and spoke just like me. What happened was that my authentic self was revealed. The words flowed because they came from my heart, with my intent, and they were delivered in my style.

 

 TIP – Create, develop and present in your style and you will blossom and shine. How awesome letting the real you out?

 

 

2. Whose voice was that, that you did not want to hear?

You know that voice that whispers or sometimes shouts in your ear? It niggles away creating chaos as you try to write or speak. It nags at you until it gets your attention, until you recognise it. Then once you understand you know you can take control and change it.

It maybe your mum or dad, your siblings or your 2nd grade school teacher that you hear telling you all your faults. Things like ‘you can’t do that’, ‘who do you think you are?’ ‘You tried that before and failed’. This monkey chatter does not serve you, it is not loving to you and it will shut down your creativity in a heartbeat.

 

TIP – When that happens stop and ask yourself – whose voice is that? Is what they are saying relevant today? (it may have been relevant when you were a child, bit it is different now you are an adult. When you recognise this you can say to yourself ‘that is old stuff, I know better now so I can do better- then dismiss it. How wonderful is that?

 

3. Celebrate your uniqueness

We are what we are, we all have unique experiences, lives and respond differently to our lives experiences. When you share from your heart that uniqueness shines through and that is what attracts people to you.

Use that uniqueness as your point of difference, first recognise and acknowledge then play and work with it. If you can’t see it ask a few friends. That worked for me when I joined a group some years ago and we were asked to write in 300 words why we should get the program for free and what 3 words made us unique. When I asked around my three came back as resilience, inspirational and courageous, words I would not have associated with myself at that time. Others often see qualities in us before we see them ourselves.

 

TIP Find and cultivate your uniqueness and quirkiness and delight the world with your words and speech…you will be amazed at what happens.

 

 4. Create stories of your life experiences

It makes you real, relatable and authentic. People will often respond with ‘yes, me to’ or ‘I did that’. Everyone loves stories, start a library of your stories, give them a quirky name and let your creativity flow. Give your story a moral or leave your audience with a message. I have story of confidence versus arrogance and it is a story from my nursing days of how my confidence tipped from confidence to arrogance. It is light hearted, it has a message and it makes people laugh.

 

 TIP Start your library of stories now and collect as you go. include the goofy things you do, the fabulous things you do and anything in between.

 

 5. Develop a library of your words and phrases

This is a recent activity for me and came from attending a recent workshop. take note of the words you write and say, that words that make you, you.

Go back and read what you have written, if you have videos listen and pick out the phrases you use. If you ruin dry ask friends or family what phrases you use regularly.

Then after writing go back and see if you have sprinkled your special words. It is not about flooding a blog post with 3 words, it is about using your words to best effect.

 TIP Start that list, add to it, play with it and enjoy it. We learn in moments of enjoyment.

 

If this post speaks to you and you are holding back or struggling, I can guide and support you. If this is you, I encourage you to reach out, to develop and deliver your style. My offer is 3 sessions tailored just for you. Do it just for you, your confidence will grow and remember, the world needs to hear your message.

 

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5 Proven Things To Be More Energised

 

 

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Some days I wake up simply wanting more energy and wonder where mine had gone. They are usually the days I have not followed my own advice.

Has that happened to you? Are you cringing and thinking ‘Yep, she is speaking to me’.

And…did you know that there are energy stealers out there? Sometimes we even steal own energy by dragging past stuff with us. Would it be a relief to put it down? I found when I did I felt lighter, had more energy and I got more done.

This is not about burying your head in the sand and pretending all is well.

What I am suggesting is that it is within your control to change what is no longer serving you.

‘You will have more energy when you am not dragging the past with you into every thought and situation’, says Joe Dispenza, author of ‘Breaking The Habit of Being Yourself’.

As an energy boost and self- starter I invite you to try 5 tips.

 

 DI’S TIPS TO HAVE MORE ENERGY

 

No 1 DAILY RITUALS AND JOURNALING

 

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Daily rituals that work for me include:
1. A 5min Confidence Boost Exercise
2. EFT (tapping)
3.Visualisations (it is a plus when you record them in your own voice)

4. Writing a Divine Letter ( a very effective tool that a friend of mine uses).
5. When you have your physical shower take a mental shower also and wash away those thoughts that no longer serve you.

Journaling is a wide subject and I use different ways at different times, my favourites include:

1. Brain dump, this exercise I started using after reading ‘The Artist’s Way’. When you wake sit up and write whatever is in your mind. That gets rid of the stuff, I find it releases negative energy as the words pour out onto the paper leaving me feeling lighter and brighter.

2, Visual journal, it can be a vision board, or what I call my ‘Success Folder’. Take time each day to spend a few minutes absorbing and integrating the images, words, colours and the energy.

3. Gratitude journal - This was a huge help when I was in a dark place. Before you go to bed each night write 3-5 things that you are grateful about. That was a challenge at first, I would grumpily mutter to myself ‘what have i got to be grateful about’. I persevered, some nights it was simply that I had a warm bed and a roof over my head. Then I found myself getting excited about what I might write that night.

4.Forward journaling, writing ‘as if’ was already in my life. When I write in this way I find it re-programs my mind for what I want to attract into my life and magic happens.

 

No 2 BEING MINDFUL OF NEGATIVE SELF-TALK

 

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You know that monkey chatter that tells you all the things you can’t do or didn’t do or quit half way that whispers or shouts in your ear. These are your stories, stories probably formed years ago. Old stories keep you stuck, they may be from family, friends or workmates, that zaps your energy. It feels like they are sucking the life right out of you.

Worrying is a biggie, it just gives you deep lines, serves no purpose and attracts more of the ‘don’t wants’ into your life. Most of the things we worry about never happen. Some worry when there is nothing to worry about, my Mum bless her was a master at it.

 

No 3 DE-CLUTTERING YOUR MIND AND HOME

 

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Now I am a Cancerian, I keep things ‘just in case’. So just the idea sent shivers down my spine at first. In fact, I had a friend come over to help me when I did my first major de-clutter. We had 4 piles, one to keep, one to the bin, one to the op shop and one for the garage sale. We went through every item and I made a decision, no ‘let me think about it’s’ were allowed. I felt so free and light after it was done.

Decluttering your mind came later and it is covered above in negative self-talk. It was something I had simply not considered that dragging the past with you constantly is a huge energy drain.

 

NO 4 DO THINGS THAT MAKE YOUR HEART SING

 

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That phrase has a lightness and brightness even before we start, they are happy words. When you do what you love, it energises you, it puts a smile on your face and a spring in your step.

What is that makes your heart sing? It may be singing, music, creating, writing, painting, blogging, dancing, sport or something else. When you find it, nurture it and include some ‘happy heart’ activity in your life every day.

 

No 5 RADICAL SELF- CARE

 

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I say radical because for many women deny themselves self-care, always putting the needs and wishes of others before themselves. If you are not in top form with your cup of live and love overflowing how can you help, support and love others? If you keep taking from the cup one day it will come up empty.

My first step into radical was forgiveness, not only to those who had harmed me, but forgiveness to myself. That opened my door to self-love and self-care.

Self- care to you may include spending time in nature, meditating, exercising. It may be reading, have a massage or a bubble bath or taking a nap. Women who do too much are often sleep deprived, don’t drink enough water, skip meals or eat on the run and push themselves to the limit. They feel guilty, undeserving or unworthy. Love yourself enough to take care of you

What do you do to energise yourself? I would love you to share with love and openness.

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3 Tips to Avoid Absorbing Negative Emotions

 

Emotions do affect communication between people.

We often absorb some of the emotions of the people we come in contact with and we may even experience a change in our own mood even if nothing has happened to us. You may even think what on earth happened that I suddenly feel drained of energy?

Why do you think you get scared when you watch a horror movie? You see the actors acting scared. It is because their emotions are communicated to you through their gestures and facial expressions.

Why do you think we like quietly confident people? Confident people transfer their positive emotions to us and make us feel relaxed, calm and safe. That’s why we like them.

On the other hand anxious or angry people unconsciously transfer some of their anxiety and anger to us and that makes us feel uneasy and uncomfortable around them.

Have you ever experienced being around someone ‘stressed’ and then you leave feeling stressed? It happens because emotions are being communicated to us whether we notice it or not.

 

When you are aware you can act on it and protect yourself or remove yourself.

 

3 Tips To Avoid Absorbing Negative Emotions

1. Avoid negative people if possible – because they will unconsciously transfer their emotions to you. If you are unable to avoid them go armed with an intention that you will not take on their negativity, surround yourself with a bubble of light that protects you and deflects their energy back to them.

 

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2. Observe your own emotions – so you don’t confuse them with the emotions you absorb from other people. If you are feeling down after being with a negative person ask yourself is this my stuff? If not great, move on. If it is then ask yourself how were you triggered by that person? And what is one thing you can do right now to feel brighter .

 

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3, Act confidently – when you act confidently people will feel relaxed around you and that can have an effect on a negative person. You may even succeed in transferring some of your positive emotion to them.

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Capturing negative emotions before they become thought and action is part of the Butterfly Net Challenge. Next program running September, stay tuned.

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It Is Just NOT That Important

 

I was having coffee with a girlfriend recently we were talking and laughing about how we get upset over things that we think at the time are  important. Have you got things now that you look back on and think…why did I think that was important?

We giggled, notice how good you feel when you stop and laugh, over instances in our lives and giggled even more over experiences we have shared over the years, things that make me cringe today.

 

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So, I decided to compile a little list (I am good at lists) of mine. You may even see yourself in here.

I used to think it was important to:

  • Look fabulous – for years I was worried over having small breasts, it completely escaped my notice that I had other great assets.
  • That I might ‘look fat in that’ and I don’t look good in jeans’– heavens I am tall and slim and can wear almost anything.
  • Keep busy every hour of every day. I was the original ‘hyperactive’. That is I stopped I was lazy, I would never get anything done. I am not and I did most of the time – who cared? Only me!
  • Be everything to everyone – what a shock it became when I my life fell apart from the death of my husband – to my shock and horror the world worked just fine without me.
  • Press the button to cross the road 10 times – I thought it would work faster.
  • Have the toothpaste tube looking neat. He squeezed and screwed the toothpaste tube all crooked. Note to self – woman get a life!
  • Have the loo roll on the right way – it takes 2 secs to change it.
  • Have the opening of the pillow case facing away from the door – OK that is a relic habit from nursing days. My son used to drive me to distraction leaving his facing the door, he only did it to get a reaction.
  • Wear high heels – I have been wearing them since I was a teen and I am about to hit six score and ten… now I need to wear flatties most of the time. A friend commented ‘be grateful you have feet to put in them’.
  • ‘Do’ technology – when my husband passed away 15 years ago I was virtually computer illiterate. For year’s I beat myself up over not being able to do things, not able to fix it, so much blood, sweat and tears expended. A friend said to me ‘could you fix the computer when Les alive?’ When I answered no, they said well why does the simple act of him leaving this earthly plane make you think you can suddenly do it all. Light bulb moment!

Now this list is far from complete, maybe you have found yourself doing some of these or you probably have your own list.

I would like to ask you ‘how much time and energy have you spent over the years indulging in your little foibles’? Imagine how you could have used that time differently?

I have found that life has a way of getting you to realise either with a gentle tap or a thundering crash what is important.

What is important to you? Please do share your thoughts


 

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Di’s Evolving

 

A question popped up in another group this morning ‘How have you evolved?’

 

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It got me thinking of my journey, what I used to think and how I think today.

Some of the ways I have evolved through confidence, resilience and working on me are:

 I lacked confidence, now my quiet inner confidence is my driving force.

 I was scared witless of speaking in public – today I love and enjoy it

 I had an over developed sense of responsibility, I thought I had to ‘fix’ everything and everybody – today I know I am responsible for me

 I was a worrier, there were times when I worried if there was nothing to worry about. Today I am a work in progress, today I face life, change what I can and mostly accept what I can’t.

 I was a control freak, I thought I knew what was best for all. Today I love taking care of me and living my life being the best version of me.

 I worried about my appearance, I worried endlessly because I had small breasts, I thought if I didn’t have a mouth you wouldn’t know the front from the back of me – today I love and appreciate my body, my stature and my gracious aging.

 I thought I was not good enough, today I know I am definitely enough.

 I took things personally. today as a work in progress I know I am not responsible for how others see and behave towards me, it is how I react that matters. As the saying goes what other people think of me is none of my business.

 I was ashamed of my past now I fully accept what happened. I have taken years, taken the time to go within and work on myself. Writing and journalling evolved into self publishing that story. I lived and breathed it, spoke about it and run programs about it. It was the catalyst for what I do today.

 I lost my sense of self after years of being the carer and carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and finding myself alone and starting over. I found a strong, warmer more compassionate woman, I like her.

 I thought I could not cope alone, in fact I have coped with my new life exceedingly well. A friend told me after Les passed away that life could still be great, wonderful and in fact even better than before. I have proven that to be true.

I judged myself to the eenth degree, today I love, honour, forgive and support myself.

 I used to be hyperactive, I now direct my time and energy more wisely and appreciate the vast stores of energy that have sustained and supported me through my life.

 I didn’t think I had a leadership bone in my body, my 40 years in Toastmasters proved differently and shown my level of competence in communication and leadership.es when I look back I wonder who that woman was, what she was thinking – I scarcely recognise her. It is not what happens to me but how react and who I become because of it. I love and appreciate the woman I am today as I keep in mind I am being the best version of me I can be.

 

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 This list may inspire you to write yours. I invite you to stop and consider how have you evolved? How does your list look? I would love to hear from you, reach out to me here or at di@diriddell.com

 

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Putting Things In Perspective

 

I know, I know you always have things in perspective, it is the other one who doesn’t. Right?

Many of us can can delude ourselves for just so long before the cracks begin to appear. It is often  our nearest and dearest who gets to point it out.

My nemisis for years after I was living alone was THE COMPUTER. It drove me crazy and my skills at that time were zilch so that should come as any surprise. It was a perfect example of letting something blow out of proportion – and I had perfected the art! The blood, sweat and tears I shed, the energy I wasted and having little ‘tanti’s’ did not help. Staring  till I became almost cross eyed did not help either.

 

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Over time I improved and thought I had a reasonable handle on what I needed to do. Ahha! If there is one thing  you should never tell your computer, it is that you are doing pretty good, don’t even whisper it…it can hear you! That is when ‘my perspective’ or lack of it got in the way. Take a few moments to watch and see…

 

 

If you find yourself in doing someting similar in an area of your life (it may not be the computer for you), take a moment to stop, step back and breathe. Finding the lighter side and having a laugh relieves and stress and can even give you a dose of reality.

I hope this content caused you to smile, maybe squirm because you know you do it to. I hope it is helpful, I love sharing stories that demonstrate that we can be our own worst enemy. I would love to hear your experiences and invite you to reach out to me by leaving a comment or drop me a line at di@diriddell.com.

Till next time cheerio! Di

 

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What changed my way of thinking?

 

One incredible moment in time became the catalyst for my new life. I realised a woman’s total package goes way beyond anything I had ever dreamt. Beyond the physical, it stretches to embrace the emotional, spiritual and shadow sides.

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If I have learned one thing from my quietly confident self, it is to follow my heart. If something does not feel right then it probably isn’t and an avalanche of emotions can leave you wanting to hide, to run, to seek safety when in fact the learning’s are within you waiting to be released – yet you are blind to it at  times of intense challenge.

There I was sitting with friends in the dappled sunlight on the verandah of a hospital room. It was September 4th 2002. The conversation flittered from subject to subject. We all knew why we were there.  The warm and fuzzy I was getting from their presence was shattered by an earth shattering scream of ‘Dianne -come quick’.

 Three paces took me to my husband’s bedside and 3 minutes later he was gone. Three things hit me – I was alone, I was scared and I did not want to accept it. The love of my life, the man who showed me unconditional love and the man who had adored me for 31 years lay lifeless before me.

Little did I know that this was to be a pivotal experience that would lead to a changed outlook on my life. That it would help me to release the shackles of my past and allow me to make a difference in the lives of other women.

How I would love to say, I picked up, pushed on and positively shone from my every pore. No, no, no! It was however time, time for me to be catapulted into the life of a widow. How that term grated on me as I groped and clawed my way forward. Today, looking back I scarcely recognise that woman.

 

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My coping mechanism was to work harder, faster and longer  than I ever had before. I was totally involved in anything and everything. I cleaned and fussed and pushed, pushed and pushed harder. I have never liked eating alone – so I stopped eating. It was not a conscious decision to lose weight it just seemed natural to my confused brain.

12 kgs fell from an already tall, slim frame. One morning I just could not do anything. My body had come to a screaming halt and I knew I needed help. The flurry began to Dr’s, psychologists and my self help journey began and gradually gained momentum.

It was a huge challenge for me to take that first step. Dealing with my grief sent me back to face significant early childhood challenges. In brief I had a violent alcoholic father who told me I was stupid, useless and worthless. Mental abuse was the order of the day, physical violence was directed at my mother with the implication that I was next. I spent a lonely, frightened and unhappy childhood. As a young teenager I had absolutely no self confidence, no self esteem and no self belief. At the age of 15 I went looking for love and rape found me – pack rape.  A pregnancy and an adoption resulted. The welfare workers in the 1960′s were controlling, overbearing and lacked compassion. Their words rang in my ears – ‘you are a disgrace to yourself, your family, Nambour, Queensland, Australia, the Universe and everything in between. No decent man will ever want you – go nursing and get out of society’s way’.

So I did, I became officious and efficient. Every TV show you ever saw with a bitch Matron, I was it, that was my persona.  Life was tough, discipline was tougher and it was there that I developed the resilience and tenacity that would serve me well throughout my life.  I met and married a man with 4 children ages 10-16 and I was 24. We added our own son to the mix, life was full, busy, challenging and we loved it.  I was safe,  loved and cherished.

 Then suddenly, life as I knew it was gone.

 

 5 things that supported me through my years of change were:

  1. Acknowledging and accepting that I was responsible for my own life and what happens to me. This was not always easy. We are meant to enjoy life and be filled with health, vitality and confidence.
  2. Developing and honing my confidence and my resilience by continually embracing the changes in my new life. To seek joy, happiness and enjoy all the little things that make me smile. It is possible to have moments of enjoyment even in the midst of chaos.
  3. Journaling daily, it constantly re-programs my mind for what I want to bring into my life. It is from that place that I attract and receive. That has now extended to blogging for mature women.
  4. Learning and practicing techniques and processes that I use to this day help me to continue to grow as a person.
  5. Developing the art of forgiveness and gratitude. Part of my journey was writing and self publishing my story, called ‘Beyond Abuse’. In order to be able to write that book I needed to come to a point of forgiveness and show gratitude to Dad and the rapists. I could never have written it otherwise. That message has flowed through then, now and into my future. Forgiveness is not a destination it is a process, it does not happen in a heartbeat. Learning to be patient with my process was a learning curve.

As a result I have become richer in life experience, calmer and more compassionate. Today I chose to work with mature women who have been through life changing challenges. I believe that when we face significant  life stressors we need a hand just like I did. A phrase that I have found useful ‘A helping hand does not stop at the wrist it extends to the heart’.

 

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If you or someone you know has had a similar experience and is starting over I would love to hear from you. You can reach out to me here in a comment or at di@diriddell.com. I offer one on one coaching and also a 21 day online Confidence Challenge.

 

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