This morning a post on Facebook by the wise gentle and amazing Janet McGeever http://www.theconsciousheart.com got me thinking, then moving. I have been procrastinating about my next blog as I share the journey of recovery in my body and my mind.
My last blog was just prior to surgery. A few days back I posted on Facebook …. Learning my lessons slowly…Recovery takes a little longer in maturity…I thought I would be sort of up and running by now after my surgery (yes about 4 days ago, I think I was born without the patience gene).
Funny how you think the rules apply to others…could it be the old RN in me rearing it’s ugly head?
Even thought I would do a blog post today…uumm I think I will put that on hold…not quite up to it yet.
Indulging in a bit of self care and receiving lost of supportive care with Vince.. I am very grateful…
So I procrastinated and Janet’s words this morning fired me up and got me thinking and moving… as I just said.
Janet’s words…I’ve been putting out fires. Some have gone out, others are still blazing, some are simmering. Seeing that some things are completely out of my control… Again and again. That another’s destiny is not my business, that perhaps it was always meant to be this way. All I can do is show up the best way a woman can, with love in her heart and acceptance of what is. The spiritual journey is more than love and light and happy pictures. It is entering the dark alley ways, the treacherous terrain and being with, being in and being for what shows up in life and sometimes that brings you to your knees and in this position all I can do is surrender, finally let go and be in prayer to simply accept and be grateful for what is. There is a soul shaping in the process… Think I can feel it.
The subject of this post of for Janet, her words had me reflecting…what fires do we have that we put out, watch as others blaze or simmer away? I thought I knew best…didn’t listen…then wondered why my body reacted in a less than ideal manner!
Wise advice may have been to ‘show up the best way a woman can, with love in my heart and acceptance of what is’. Funnily enough prior to surgery I had taken time for self care in many heartfelt ways.
However post op….Was I showing kindness and loving to myself? Nooooo I wasn’t.
Did I accept what was? Noooo I didn’t.
Did I push the boundaries? Yes I did.
Did it help? Noooooo.
What did I learn? Y Accept that some things are beyond my control. To surrender, let go and accept and be grateful for what is.
Yes I did a complete turn, surrendered, let go of ‘why can’t I…blah, blah, blah and accepted what was. My body needs time to rest and recover and heal. I am now prepared to let that happen.
Oohh that control is a wily little devil…she gets in there and digs in! As I lovingly acknowledge her, knowing that while she has my best interest as heart, there are other and more effective ways. I know better now, so I can do better. That shell of control I have held up for years was a protection mechanism.
And to show my gratitude. Y I have so much to be grateful for…including the love and care lavished on me by the man in my life…thanks honey. For the friends and family who were there for me in so many ways.
Yes I did receive some beautiful flowers… the simple beauty and intense warm colour of the sunflower. Just gorgeous!
As Looked out my bedroom window and felt so grateful for where I live….my personal view…
My soul is indeed developing as I allow and accept and grow as a result. The fires are slowing fading away as I lovingly allow myself to recover…and if it takes longer than I expected so be it.
I was told to really rest for 2 weeks and then take it easy for 2 more weeks. At 10 days it is Ok to now sit back, giggle at myself, support myself lovingly and allow. Those embers are fading.
Now it’s your turn…a few points to ponder?
- Where in your life have you been creating, fanning or putting out fires?
- In what ways do you show up the best way a woman can, with love in your heart and accept of what is?
- How have you tried ‘control’ as a means to an end?
- How do you take the time to express gratitude for the fabulous and not so fabulous things in your life
My heartfelt thanks and gratitude to you Janet for being the catalyst for my thinking and moving today. You are such a shining light for women.
To all the women I know and the women I am yet to know…
Warm regards Di…and what …you are asking… does this woman do?
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